Hi Guys , Its 30'th January
How's life? Hope you can enjoy your last free time this semester. Fighting!!
Btw I was thinking about going constantly write about any random things that happened and my weird thought:v about something. I want that blog going to be an everlasting diary that I can read many years later.
Guys btw did you know that the college environment was so damn scary sometimes. We always compare each other with how to hustle you are, changing the role on Linkedin, or just feeling insecure with someone who always showing their productivity on social media (I'm also showing it but not that "alay" :v). Actually, I was always hide the story that make me feel insecure and getting a panic attack bcs of it.
Btw
First of all, do you guys feel that " I have to be independent" all the time? Yes, I feel that. Just many years ago, when I watch a serial on tv that show how a couple of struggling for their life because they are a poor family but in the other side her/his mother is rich. I think that is why they don't ask for help from their family? Isn't easy?. So I just got the answer right now. I was born not in a poor family or a rich family but in the middle of that. Sometimes I feel like, asking for money from my parents was so damn hard. Not bcs they don't want to give it to me, but feels like it. It was a burden cause they have many important things that they have to afford. So, why do I have to add them as a burden again?. This kind of thing that always been in my head till now. AND ITS THE BEGINNING OF HOW I STRUGGLE TO BE AN INDEPENDENT :'(
Everyone may be just thinking that " Why are you always being an ambitious person, just relax, enjoy your life, you're too serious ". Hey you, I'm not too serious bcs my life isn't a joke. Upsie
I was so serious in everything, I don't know since when (I think it since I was in senior high school). I have to try everything that I can to buy everything that I want. Yash thanks to my dear family for teaching me how to struggle to have something. Actually, I have an inner child issue that people around me always degrade me and although I've achieved something, I'm still bad and just easy to degrade and sham me. Yash I exactly know that I'm not a perfect gurl being. Just b aja in everything.
But (again lol)
Hey yo, you guys who feel like "being the worst people ever", always feel humiliated. HEY YOU CAN PROVE THAT YOU'RE 1000 % BETTER THAN THEM. If somebody doesn't believe in you, at least here I'm who always supports you. cyayoooooo....
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Why I'm so random:v
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