random feeling

so sorry that post just to random :)

Hi everyone, I hope that you guys doing well and for someone that trying to be okay. Fighting !!

This is not a poem page or something like that. I just want to express my feeling that I feel right know and I know that this is exactly just me that read this page lmao :).

Hi, how's life? 

Is it too much challenge right? 

is to too hard for you? yash no problem thats normal and I feel so. 

I've just heard a podcast that so deep and give me some insight and can calm my brain for a while.

"Night not always night, morning not always morning, and afternoon not always afternoon. Life is go on, sometimes we are on the top and sometime on the bottom and will always keep spinning. You didnt face the problem alone. Everyone exactly have their own problem. Our shoes is not exactly in the same size , our capacity is not the same but we all exactly given a problem. God exactly know we can throught that, so just face it although it with many tears"

That podcast remain me that not only me that face that painful thing. Something that also remain me about life that when I was in the train and see many kind of activities outside and see their house. Honestly I always imagine if I was them and how can I survive at that situation. Even if I just use my sister's PC and always lagging at that time and it was so frustating and also just in case I have no phone data I was literally not on my mood. Yash but they can enjoy their live and face that situation. (so sorry I was so random and just wrote what in my mind :")

by the way, I just want to share what I face in one month lately that I think its so much challenging and lil bit painful maybe (no drama but to be honest yes ). I am a type of a person that always overthinking, panic for all of the thing, ambitious sometime and careless of course. I always think more deeper something that maybe not important and that makes me got an insomnia. Oh ya insomnia was literally my big problem. Just in one week I cant sleep 4 days (not directly) , shit its make me always getting GERD problem and got psikosomatis problem. Dear friend who wanna tell me some bad thing or I just make problem , dont tell me at night (wait until morning) cause definitely I got insom and it make my chest was so painfulllll. 

Everyone who wanna share how can deal with insom pls share the tips ( except just said dont think too much cause I can't). 

Oh yaa its just came to my mind. I wanna thanks for the problem that I've got face , I learned a lot and made me decide to just focus on my life, focus how to improve my life and also don't intervene other people problem. I feel sorry for everything and definetely Im so sorry. I feel more knowing my self than before. Hmmm but for reach that kind of wisdom , I have to sick for 3 days first, poor me. Talking about health, I was curios why I have many kind of health issues and easy to get sick and it makes me feel so sorry to my mother who always take care of me ( literally I wanna cry and love you). Hope my health issue getting better.

Lastly (so sorry that post was so random) I WANNA THANKS TO MY DEAR FRIEND who always by my side that I know  just can be counted on one finger.Thanks for always give me some spirit and calm me down. Literally you are my best.