Life Lately: The Unexpected Twists
Hey there, it’s me, Gestina, the same person who wrote the first post in this blog. Life has a funny way of changing things up, doesn’t it? It feels like the rhythm of my life is the same, yet the way I navigate through it has shifted dramatically. Where do I even begin? There’s been so much happening that it’s hard to keep track.
What’s Stayed the Same?
First things first, I’m still single. Yep, all this time, still solo, and honestly, I’m over it. People keep telling me to "enjoy the single life," but how can I when I’ve been single forever?
Is this really supposed to be fun? I know I don’t fit into the conventional standards of beauty, and I’m okay with that—well, most of the time. But do I get tired of being alone? Absolutely. Do I sometimes cry about it? Yeah, I do. But I’m leaving it in God’s hands and trusting that when the time is right, things will change.
Then there’s my insomnia. Ugh, it’s been my constant companion. Night after night, I lie there, eyes closed but mind racing. It’s so stressful, especially knowing I have to be up and functioning the next day. Panadol has become my best friend, helping me through those dreadful migraines when I miss out on sleep for two days straight.
But there’s a bit of a silver lining—I finally reached out to a doctor via Halodoc. The consultation was a mix of relief and shock. Apparently, it’s not as serious as I feared; just some trauma-related stress. And no, I’m not crazy! The doctor prescribed some medication, though it’s pretty expensive, and I’ll need to take it for six months to a year. The good news? It’s helping me sleep better. I’ll keep you updated on how it goes.
What’s Changed?
Now, onto the changes. The biggest one? I moved from Wates to Jakarta. It wasn’t a total shock—I knew this move was coming, especially with my career as a UI/UX Designer. But life threw me a curveball. I got laid off from MAPAN, a company I adored. That really broke my heart because I loved the people, the work environment, and the flexibility of working from home. But, life goes on.
Before I was laid off, I had already started applying to other companies—over 50, to be exact. Eventually, I landed a job at Sinarmas, thanks to a recommendation from a colleague. The pay is good, especially for a fresh graduate like me, and I’m grateful given the tough job market right now.
But—there’s always a “but,” isn’t there? The job itself has been really stressful. I’m in a new role as a UX Researcher, something I have no prior experience in, and it’s been giving me major anxiety. I constantly worry that I’m not good enough, especially when I compare myself to my super-talented colleagues and bosses. They seem to have it all figured out, while I’m just here, trying not to drown. But I’m determined to work hard, learn as much as I can, and hopefully, prove to myself that I can do this.
The Silver Lining
Despite all the stress, I have to admit—I like Jakarta. It’s full of surprises, and there’s so much to do on the weekends. I’ve made some great friends here, too. The downside? I’ve been a bit too spendy. With so many tempting things around and having my own salary, it’s been hard to keep my finances in check. I’m trying to be more disciplined, though. I’ve started investing a little, just to keep things balanced.
Anyway, that’s enough typing for now. Thanks for reading, and until next time!
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